Posted June 23, 2012 at 6:12am
My mind is spinning…
— Sometimes I feel like I am the most emotional person out there…or maybe I just have overactive tear ducts. I’ve been struggling with a lot lately and it’s taken its toll on me. I try SO hard to be perfect all the time and to keep up the impression that everything is always going right in my life, and it’s really hard. Whenever I come across hardships or things that are not so perfect, I get discouraged so easily. These past few days I have completely broken down several times, (partly because of the time of the month) and I have just been down in the dumps due to imperfections in my life. Not like, “Aw man, this movie is sad” type of sad but like….my whole world is rocked kind of sad. Even youth group, Zumba, sweets, or friends weren’t able to cheer me up. Then I realized…God is the only thing that can satisfy me. The only problem is that I’ve never felt this upset before, and the only way I know how to react is by moping around. I don’t even feel like deepening my relationship with Christ when I feel like this, even though I know it will help me and that it’s the right thing to do. I guess I just have issues. I’ve realized that I don’t have to be perfect…but it’s kinda hard changing the way you go about life after 16 years.
Posted June 13, 2012 at 10:18pm